Tuesday, January 17, 2017

School is in Session

School starts next week and I don't know if I am ready. I am not prepared for the classes, the work, the commitment, and getting up at 6am every single day. However, in the end I know that it will all be worth it because I am working toward my ultimate goal and that all starts with getting a college degree and looking for the dream job.

School is not a necessity and the fact that I have the privilege to attend a four year university that is slowly becoming a more accredited college in the country is pretty amazing. It is pretty crazy to think about when I was in high school. I mean it was only a short four years ago, but those four years flew. I can not believe I am almost graduating college.

It feels as though I still have an eternity until I am done. However, reality is I have about a year, maybe a year and a half. Yes I will have been in school for 5 years and that is a long time as I had the goal of finishing in 4. However, reality is that finishing in 5 years is the new normal.

I am pretty proud of everything that I have accomplished and I am proud of where I am going. I know I will reach my goal. Even with all of my anxiety of not being able to find a job when I graduate I know that I will. I know I can make this work and in the end I will reach my goal. I might not reach it right away and I may have to jump through some hoops, but I know I will get there.

Something that has stuck with me is what my dad told me recently about how proud he is of me. He told me that I will reach my goals because I am a go getter. I work hard and I go after what I want. That I have matured and he wishes he was like me when he was my age. It has really stuck with me.

All I have ever wanted to do is to make my parents proud in my life. Not just my parents, but my family in general. I do everything for myself because it is what I want, but in the end I do it for my family to make them proud. I don't want to let any of them down. I want them to be able to brag about how successful I am and that they are proud of what I accomplished.

I know as long as I am happy they will be as well. However, I want them to be happy on their own. I want them to be proud. I want to succeed for them and for myself.

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